He starts off telling the story of when Jesus and the disciples were in the boat and that storm struck, and all of the disciples were freaking out and wondering why Jesus was sleeping and not doing something. If you are unfamiliar with this story it comes from Mark chapter 4 starting about verse 35. My favorite thing that Jesus says is in verse 40. "Why are you so fearful? How is it that you have no faith?"
WO! This struck me big time! If you recall earlier posts, I almost went home the second day of being in Guatemala, then the third, fourth, fifth, and so on for the first month or so. God was teaching me FAITH, I was scared every day, and so convinced that I had "misheard" what God wanted in my life. Keeping in mind that for the past 4 years all I wanted to do was move here and work at a Children’s Home. I was living in fear and not in faith.
How does this apply to my life now? I have only 7 weeks left in Guatemala, and have no idea what is next. I feel as though I haven't heard anything from the Lord as to what’s next, that I have been living in this season of silence. I have about 9384398 options and not the slightest clue in what direction to go. I find myself dwelling on what’s next instead of what’s here. I’m fearful of the sadness that will come when I have to say goodbye to all of these precious faces that I have fallen so deeply in love with. There is the fear of not having money, and the fear of just not knowing which way to go. HELLO! Have I learned nothing the past 6 months?! God has a plan!! Anyway in the podcast Dan went on to say that in the story with Jesus, the disciples, and the boat, the whole time JESUS WAS IN THE BOAT. They could see him physically there, did they think he wasn’t going to do something? He’s in my boat He is in yours. Do we think he isn’t doing anything, just because it may be a season of silence, where we don’t see what He is doing in our lives? He is here with you and me through EVERYTHING. Where to go from here? It doesn't matter, Jesus is in my boat. And even more so than that, God has been, is, and always will be in control. We can't mess up on where to go because He is guiding, and He is not going to let go of us, ever. I don't know about you but there is such a peace and confidence that you gain from having FAITH, in his word that says "I will never leave you, nor forsake you". Would I love to know what’s to come, ABSOLUTELY, would it mess up what God has for me now if I knew, ABSOLUTELY. So once again I’m reminded how small my faith is and how big my God is. Dan closes with this quote and I hope it helps you through whatever season you’re going through”
"By His grace, for His glory, and for your good, and in His time, He will act. In the mean time know He's doing something good anyway."
In other news, this past weekend all of the houseparent’s went on a retreat. Great for them, sleepless for us! haha. 5 month old Marvin and I had a sleepover, it only took me one night of waking up almost hourly to realize that 1. I don't want babies; I want to start off with potty trained toddlers, and 2. I definitely could not do it alone! Night two I pulled in Shelly so we could switch off every time he cried; turns out you still don't sleep. So now it’s back to my original plan of just starting off with toddlers. ;) All in all it was such a fun weekend, and I was so grateful for the opportunity to help out even more. Here are some of my favorite photos from the weekend:
Giving 3 year old Alejandro a bath, he LOVES them.
This was at about 3am when Marvin wouldn't sleep; I realized he just needed a face mask. I mean I can't sleep without one either buddy.
No Houseparent's? WATER FIGGGGHT.
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